I took several years off from writing.
I am back.
Yes, I deleted all of my old posts.
Yeas, I am feeling really rusty.
I have to find the funny gifs again and the cute pictures.
I have to find my mojo again and I do not think it really is going to happen with this post.
This post is simply my “Back on the Saddle Again” kind of post.
This post is so I can look at myself in the mirror and tell myself I fulfilled my promise of writing again.
This post is so I can tell my friends who keep reminding me I have a story to share that will help people that I am doing this thing.
I am telling my story again.
My old “wah me” job story is now small potatoes. That is SO “3 years ago”.
My new story is this:
I discovered in the fall that my husband of 11 years (and partner for 14 years) had been unfaithful to me.
Not just a one and done kind of unfaithful. Like – unfaithful the entire time we have been together. Back in our dating days. Weeks before our wedding. And then, of course, all the years after our wedding.
Apparently he found his soul mate and was with her for a year before I found out.
My posts are not about trashing him. Or really all about unveiling the misery and the devastation that naturally ensues when one becomes privy to this kind of information.
I am no longer the sad sack little depressed girl I was when I started this blog a few years ago.
I want to share my posts with whoever wants to know that whatever they are going through, they will always make it. There is always the other side. Some take more steps than others. Some sides are closer. Some are further.
I am still healing. I am not “done” yet.
But I have healed enough to be able to shake off the filmy residue of anger to see the shiny hope and opportunity to start all over again in this new story.
Here is my first post. A long standing promise to myself and to so many people who have believed in me right from the start. Even when I was still buried under the familiar rubble of immobility.
It is time to start mobilizing.
I want to share the ups and downs of life after infidelity.